Sunday, October 20

What I've learned

Oh sure, I've got lots of great dramatic details about drinking, my medical miracle, how I'm alive today. That's old news.

October 20th, 2012 was a turning point in my life. I didn't know it then, I had no idea the tremendous things to come.

I'd like to first thank all the wonderful medical staff who worked tirelessly with this old carcass, and breathed some life back into it. They nurtured an ember that has grown into a strong flame.

Below are some random bullets of things I've learned over the past year, just thought I'd share for fun:

• Sobriety has little to do with stopping drinking. It is a calm, highly lucid, caring and sensitive state of mind.

• A Chinese emperor tried enacting prohibition about 4,000 years ago. This is not a new problem.

• 80,000 people die each year from alcohol related medical issues. Liver failure, cancers. This is more than twice the amount killed by Breast Cancer. (Maybe the NFL players can start wearing little pink thigh flasks).

• Religion was created by men for men (and now women too). Spirituality is created by God for all.

• Only one step in the AA program mentions alcohol.

• The Windsor Recovery Club has the highest by far annual attendance of any spiritually based non profit organization in town. Over 1,000 AA meetings a year, 365 days a week. estimated 30-50k annual attendance.

• If I tell you you can't have a drink for the next 6 Months ... and you flinch and protest. You are addicted at some level. Most can manage this addiction fine. Over 15 Million are affected by those who cannot in the US alone.

• When you stop eating proteins, your body traps fluids and your stomach swells (this is why starving kids have swollen guts and look fat). It looks a lot like green anti-freeze when drained. A gallon weighs 10 Lbs. A quick way to lose weight!  10lbs an hour!

• The serenity prayer works wonders when reading e-mails from ex-spouses.

• Alcohol disturbs your sleep, prevents you from getting proper complete rest and exacerbates sleep disorders.

• NH can afford to not have a state sales tax, because it runs the liquor stores. It has one of the highest rates of alcoholism, the per capita consumption in New Hampshire is 43.0 gallons. (I went to college there - I know).

• I know people personally under 25 and over 60, just entering AA. I have met many wonderful grandparents with loving families, suddenly became wildly addicted and lost everything.

• It's not easy to get recovery books into a maximum security prison. No matte how good your intentions are.

• Many professionals (psychiatrists etc) give up on people ... and tell them to go to AA for help.

• AA doesn't care about your religion, ethnicity, race, social status, sexual orientation. Any and all are welcome to this loving and caring organization, full of people who honestly just want to help.

• Your spirituality goes with you  24/7. It's not something you discuss at 'church for a few hours a week.

A spiritual awakening is a wonderful feeling. It flows all through you. You learn humility, serenity, inner peace and calm anongst life's turmoil. 

I am blessed to be alive this morning, and every morning. I have a lot to do, but I do so with a guide that I shunned a long time ago. May you find him now also.


Note:  If you choose to drink or smoke, or whatever ... those are YOUR personal choices. I don't care what you do unless I see it affecting you or others around you in a very serious manner. I'm just sharing MY world. MY perception.  We each experience life very differently.